Who decides what is important in life?

In life many things are important, so we think.

From the moment we are born we learn things like friends are important, family is important, the newest music is important, the newest fasion is important, and so on. But what makes something really important in life? And what makes us think we can’t live without that person or item in our life?

I’m crazy about Michael Jackson and Taryll Jackson. They are a part of joy in my life. They have hurt me in the past, but they also made me happy. I wouldn’t want to live without them and I appreciate it I am able to “know” them. But is that a good thing? Is it a good thing I want to hold on to these 2 people in my life? Isn’t it something I hold against myself to grow further?

I know moving on is better then staying on the same place. But one thing is for sure, I will never stop loving Michael or Taryll. Yet, it feels like something that isn’t good for me. It keeps me busy every day of my life. The death of Michael has cut into me so deep, I never thought I would miss him so much. A lot of people don’t understand and that’s okay. Other people might recognize this feeling with other people, or maybe items they think they ‘need’ to own to be happy.

What is it that makes me love these 2 guys so much? Even though I know I will never meet Michael anymore, and the chance of meeting Taryll is smaller then winning the lottery. Still I want to hold on to them.

Why is that?